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Irony

2008-02-10T23:58:00.000+08:00

Think God put us where He thinks is best for us. People say they cant imagine how they are goin to survive if they are born in a non christian family suffering those persecution. But I think, personally, for me, I wont be able to survive as a christian if I am born into a christian family. Without those persecution, I guess I won't appreciate or cherish the very fact that I can go to church.

Every Saturday is indeed a miracle for me to go church.

People dying to get into church and the people dying to get out of church, the irony that I just can't understand.

You will always be my God

2008-01-30T22:39:00.000+08:00

I always like to go to the coast and take a good look at the sea, its grand view and vastness that stretched out beyond the horizon. The vast mass of the sea always reminded me how fragile and small I am, yet God the creater of the universe, chose me and called out to me. Not once, but as many times as it was needed to make me believe that He is the faithful God.

Joy unspeakable, love so unique, strength so mighty, power unimaginable and words that are so true. In the mist of persecution He taught me courage, in the situation of impossiblilities He taught me faith, in cases of poverty He taught me how to give. When I think back of the things He taught me, I would always smile and say "my glorious".

He saves, seriously.

Worship Hunger

2007-10-07T22:39:00.000+08:00

Its been ages since I touched my blog. Anyway pastor was preaching about the importance and the very essence of what worship is. The message just came at the right time at the right moment, where worhsip to me had become kind of like a practice or routine, but now i know the true meaning of what worship is all about.

Worship Is

Obedience to the Lord
[Everyone can say they Love God and would sacrifice evrything for God. But when it comes to the point where actions must be taken for that sacrifice....how many will really say " I will Lord, for your Glory"]

More than a song
[True worship last even after praise and worship, the presence of God will lingers in you every moment evryday. It last]

Putting God First
[Basically, to put God the number one in our lives]

Preparing For

Worship

The bible says that ask and it will be given, seek and you will find, knock and the door will be opened for you[Mattew 7:7]. So what you seek for during praise and worship is just a pleasing and satisfactory experience, at the end of the service, all you will get is just satisfaction, but your life will be the same as before you entered the praise and worship service, never been impacted by the awesome majestic presence and power of the almigty God.

Come to God with a heart of expectation, expecting God to show you more of his glory, expecting God to show you His mercy and power, expecting God to touch your heart and change your negative thoughts around.

"Until now you have not asked for anything in my name. Ask and you will receive, and your joy will be complete."[John 16:24]

A pity that many of us dinn't come prepared to meet God. While our faithful God always came prepared to help us and resuce us.

Praise You in this storm

2007-06-24T20:26:00.000+08:00

Casting crowns-praise you in this storm.

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I was sure by now
That You would have reached down
And wiped our tears away
Stepped in and saved the day
But once again, I say "Amen", and it's still raining

As the thunder rolls
I barely hear Your whisper through the rain
"I'm with you"
And as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise the God who gives
And takes away

I'll praise You in this storm
And I will lift my hands
For You are who You are
No matter where I am
Every tear I've cried
You hold in Your hand
You never left my side
And though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm

I remember when
I stumbled in the wind
You heard my cry
You raised me up again
My strength is almost gone
How can I carry on
If I can't find You

As the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain
"I'm with you"
And as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise the God who gives
And takes away

I lift my eyes unto the hills
Where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord
The Maker of Heaven and Earth

-You are my greatest encourager, even when I embrace the storms of life...you are close to me wiping away the tears i cried.

You choose to love me even when I am so worthless and useless.

And I will give up everything I love that I might gain your love, your perfect love.

Fear God alone.....Nothing else.

2007-06-13T22:59:00.000+08:00

The story of David and the goliath - A young boy who killed a giant with just a sling shot.

The giant was huge, his voice strike like thunder and all the soldiers feared him. But despite all the fearful threat and discouraging insults, David still ran to fight that giant, with only one thing in mind....God.

Our problems are like giants, it may seem impossible or threatening that the very thought of it makes you stumble with fear. However, we caqn view our probems with different perspective. From God's view, He will fight for us and help us, for He will never forsake us or leave leave us, and this is the confidence and assurance that we have from God which is the very essence that allows david to fight the giant goliath.

If you Focus on Giant...You stumble.
If You Focus on God...Giant stumble.

For if God is with us, who will be against us.
Fear the one that can take away both physical body as well as the soul instead of the one who can only take away our physical body.

Fearing People is a dangerous trap, but trusting the Lord means safety.
[Proverbs 29:25]

Rescued

2007-06-07T22:18:00.000+08:00

Have you ever been so devastaed some point in your live that you hope someone will be there to save you? Desperately wanting to find some relief from those troubles you are facing? Seeking throughout your whole entire life time just to find a place where you can call it sacturary.

I found it. I found someone who will stand by me in the storms of life, able to rescue me from my troubles giving me refuge and peace where I can call it sacturary.
I found the greatest love that this world have ever recieved. He is called the saviour Christ Jesus.

Let me tell you what are some of the most wonderful things I learned from this journey with Him, or infact the journey He invited me on.
1. True strength comes from the joy of the Lord.
2.Faith really move moutains, moutains of troubles, moutains of illness and many others.
3.My soul is now free now because Jesus paid it all at the cross.
4.His words and promises is really comforting and assuring.
5.Tougher decision makes tougher faith.
6.He is really the God of miracles. Trust me, God never fails to suprise me that makes me crazily shouting His praises.
7.Calm down and be still, you will know that He(Jesus) is God, the king of kings and the lord of lords.
8.Do not ask what God can do for you, but what you can do for God. Thats what pastor recently told me, while my dad always tells me "do not ask what people can do for you, but what you can do for people."
9.God wants the best for you.
10.God love us more than we love Him, and He will always be there for us, always.

There are much much more things that I have learned from the amazing journey that it will take days to list out all. I am sure all those who enbark on this journey will have their own story to tell too. But for me it is really an honor to be found in Him, the creator and saviour.

Rain or Shine.....I will worship You

2007-05-20T20:11:00.000+08:00

Dear God,
You guided me and taught me even when I failed you. In troubled times, You always rescued me without fail. Trepidation overwhlemed me but you came to calm my heart. When nothing seems possible, I found joy and peace in you, yet you make it possible. Rain or shine you stretch out your arms to help me, giving me strength and hope, putting a smile on my face. I will never regret knowing you, the one who heal my broken heart and making it whole again.

I will Love you, trust you, worship you and follow you always....and forever.

Thank You God....

2007-02-11T13:45:00.000+08:00

To the almighty God that love us so much:

There are so much to thank You for, I din't realise how blessed I am under your amazing grace and undying love for me. Only to appreciate the blessings You have given me when adversity and trials came my way.

I thank You for loving me and saving me even though I am a sinner.

Thank You for choosing me to be a child of God.

Thank You for not forsaking me, even though I failed you time and again, as your grace covered it all.

Thank You for a wonderful cell group You have put me in, where I found the care and concern that I can't find else where.

Thank You for softening my parent's heart so that they allow me to go to church, to praise and worship You.

Thank You for the trails You gave me, through it You taught me what is faith, perserverance and patience.

Thank You for providing all my daily needs.

Thank You for answering my prayer, for I know that You are a faithful God.

Thank You for my family, which through my parent You taught me obedience, through my brother and sister You taught me love.

Thank You for giving me the chance to believe in You, where task seems impossible to accomplish and problems too big for me, I trust in You and You showed me the impossible and make a way for me. This I know You are the way, the truth and the life.

Yours Faithfuly,
Jin Quan

I Traded My Everything for JESUS.........

2007-01-14T20:56:00.000+08:00

Yesterday I did something that I never do before in my whole entire life, I told my parents that I am goin to church. I am just sick and tired of sneaking to church and hiding from my parents. My dad told me that once I leave this house and go to church, my school, my laptop, allowance, my handphone will all be stopped and confiscated. At that moment, I got to choose between my future or God. It is a very hard decision, if i choose God, all my plans and my future will be gone. If i choose my future, I will never be able to worship God and honor God. At last I chose God, i ran out of my house and that brought great misery to my mum but great anger to my dad. It hurts me alot to see my mum cry, as if she has just lost a son and the havoc I had brought to my family. But I wish to tell them, Jesus is so real and true in my life that I cant forsake Him, He is my all in all, my life. I love my family but I love Jesus too, and if there is another chance I wish I could contribute alot more to my family.

I traded my everything for Jesus, who love me and came and die for me. Is HE who taught me how to be strong, is HE who is with me in my darkest days, is He who protected and built me up this few years. Thats why i am willing to give up my everything for HIM.

Yesterday was the day where for the first time I tasted freedom like never before, and joy beyond any description. For the first time I went to church and not to be burdened by anything. And yes, without fail I will go and worship God on sat.

Yesterday after church activities I was allowed to go home, and ya MY THINGS ARE STILL IN ONE PIECE. My parents allowed me to use laptop and gave me alloance for another two weeks. It is really a miracle that they gave me two more weeks, given my parent's character, they will just destroy my everything. But I believe in God, though emtpy handed but alive in His hands. God will surely make a way, I trust Him from the day I said the sinner's prayer till now.

[Phillipians3:7-8] - However, what things were gain to me, these have I counted loss for Christ.

A Fish Story......

2006-12-28T20:14:00.000+08:00

Recently i was checking out a christian forum, where they were discussing about many christian issues such as "Will you remember more the death or the birth?" , and " What is Jesus to everybody as a christian?". Then i chanced upon this topic on "fish sign" which talks about christian using the fish symbol. I find it interesting and cool about how christian are associated with fish.

Firstly fish was memtioned in the bible,
Mark 1:17: "Come after Me, and I will make you become fishers of men."
Matthew 12:40: "...Jonah was three days and three nights in the belly of the great fish, so will the Son of Man be three days and three nights in the heart of the earth."
Matthew 14:17: "And they said to Him, 'We have here only five loaves and two fish.'"
Luke 5:6: "And when they had done this, they caught a great number of fish, and their net was breaking."
Luke 24:42: "So they gave Him a piece of a broiled fish and some honeycomb."
John 21:6: "And He said to them, 'Cast the net on the right side of the boat, and you will find some.' So they cast, and now they were not able to draw it in because of the multitude of fish."

The acrostic( An acrostic is an "arrangement of words in which the first letter of each line ordinarily combines with others to form a word or words or the alphabet." )of the word "fish" in greek(pronounced Ichthys ) can be used to form words like [Iesous (Jesus) CHristos (Christ) THeou (God) Uiou (Son) Soter (Savior)].

How can a fish gets more intresting than this.

Truth Of Christmas!!!!!

2006-12-24T00:05:00.000+08:00

For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life. [John 3:16]
This is the truth: On christmas a saviour is born, the one and only son of God came down to earth, in our likeness, that one day he will die on the cross for our sins.

Christmas is to celerbrate the hope and salvation that our God gave to us on that special day. Where Jesus came and gave us the greatest gift, which is to pay off our sins. Without Jesus, there will be no christmas, no gifts, no hope, no salvation, no celebration. Believe it or not, God has already prepared the greatest gift for every single one of us 2000 years back. Just imagine opening the present God gave you, you opened and you found everlasting peace for your soul, then joy and happiness, love that you seek ernestly, and finally eternal life. All this God has already packed it for you, He is jus waiting for you to open it.

For God did not send his Son into the world to condemn the world, but to save the world through him. [John 3:17]

For HE is the God of miracles!!

2006-12-21T00:00:00.000+08:00

Amazingly I struggled my way to YI( Youth Impact) camp and attended most of their activities. The weather was bad during the first two days, it has been raining non stop and we were not able to do outdoor activities, we are missing out alot of fun if it continues to rain throughout the four days of camp. Weather forcast said rain will continue for days, but by faith we believe that on the third day there shall be no rain, Cuz our God is greater than anything, INCLUDING THE WEATHER! And ya, we pray and pray and pray and there it goes, no rain on the third day. God gave us good weather, and we enjoyed ourselves tremendously. We are ordinary people who do not possess any power, but when we are connected to a extraordinary God, we will do extraordinary things.

Yes God, I called and you answered. You always came to my rescue, always guiding me, never forsaking me for I know you are with me always. You filled me with joy and relief that i never experience before, and what could I say or do....but only to offer this heart of mine wholeheartedly to you.

Faith

2006-12-16T23:05:00.000+08:00

Faith without action is lame, actions without faith is blind. And so what is faith? Faith is something that you believe that does not rest on logical proof or material evidence. Faith needs obedience, faith needs courage, faith needs perseverence and faith needs love.

I sometimes question myself, how much faith do I have in God, and trust in Him that He will be able to turn the situation around. I must admit that though I declare that I love God, sometimes I just don have the courage to stand up for my faith, to do what God wants me to do.

But not for now onwards, I have formed my stand, that is to put all my faith into the hands of the lord our saviour Christ Jesus. That whatever obstacle and troubles that comes my way, I know for sure that God will help me.

Faith is to believe what you do not yet see; the reward for this faith is to see what you believe.

Some things have to be believed to be seen

You are always there......always..

2006-11-26T01:06:00.000+08:00

Whenever I feel down, You will always comfort me.
Whenever I am sad, You send your people to cheer me up.
When I am afraid, You assured me.
When I am lonely, You are always by my side.
When I am tired, You gave me strength.
When I am lost, You lead me through.
Everytime I called out to You,You answered.
Everytime I seek You, You are right there beside me.
And when evrything in my world fades, I know You will still be there for me, the one that leads me out of darkness into your awesome light.
You are none other than God, my saviour my best friend.

It's a long way.....

2006-11-19T20:26:00.000+08:00

Come to think of it, i have been a christian for 5 yrs, or in fact i have known Christ for 5 yrs. It's just so amazing how i survived and kept my faith till today despite all the opposition and difficulites i faced. This five yrs, I struggled, fought, tears were shed, falling along the way yet God's love lifted me up again. 5 yrs ago, from a defendless young sec 1 boy that have just accepted Christ, to now a grown up young man that stand strong in the faith of God.....just how much i have grown spiritually in that five yrs of trials and persecution.

If God brings you to it, HE will bring you through it.

A wallpaper created by Kong Sheng....

Because there is a God.....

2006-11-09T22:09:00.000+08:00

A poem by Russell Kelfer....

You are who you are for a reason.
you're part of an intricate plan.
You're a precious and perfect unique design,
Called God's special woman or man.

You look like you look for a reason.
Our God made no mistake.
He knit you together within the womb,
You're just what he wanted to make.

The parents you had were the ones he chose,
And no matter how you may feel,
They were custom-designed with God's plan in mind,
And they bear the Master's seal.

No, that trauma you faced was not easy.
And God wept that it hurt you so;
But it was allowed to shape your heart.
So that into his likeness you'd grow.

You are who you are for a reason,
you've been formed by the master's rod.
you are who you are, beloved,
Because there is a God!!!!

Thanks

2006-11-04T22:14:00.000+08:00

Todae by grace I made it to church again. This time i felt better, I let God settle all my probs, those fears, fear that my parents finds out i go church, fear of not being able to go chruch, all this i leave it to God and fully immense myself in the praise and worship. And guess wad ......God save tha day again. I jus wanna thank God for wad He has done.... He saves me time and again, gave me a wonderful fellowship and when i fall He will always reach out his hands and pull me up. When it all seems impossible......He will make a way.

By the way, YI(youth impact) camp and christmas bash is comin up, cant wait for it. Really hope that i will make it to the camp without any objections. So ya got to start praying now.

[Luke 17:6] 6 He replied, "If you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mulberry tree, 'Be uprooted and planted in the sea,' and it will obey you.

Like a puppet...

2006-10-19T19:38:00.000+08:00

I jus hate it.......my parents treat me totally like a puppet. Always Wants me to fit into their expectations, things like religion, studies, apperarance(fashion wise), jobs, and even my feelings, they want me to change so as to suits them. When i am sad or angry, i got to act as though I am happy in front of them, showing them the slightest hint of my fury and anger would means courting death. And I jus hate their mantality of "children are always wrong but parents are always rite" which gives them the absolute authority and power to reign over my life and my perception of things. Haiz life's like that, God told us to honor our parents so got to do as HE tells me to. But i cant help it but to post all my discontentment here.

My body and soul are tired, but i am still moving on no matter wad.....

Never Forsaken......

2006-10-08T21:55:00.000+08:00

Sat I went and gave the testimony of how great God love me and never forsake me. Indeed God never forsake anyone of us, no matter how bad and rebelious we are, He still wait earnestly for our return.

Here is the testimony of wad I shared in chuch PLUS exclusive parts where I did not share it in the speech dilivered in church.

Testimony Of How Great God Is In My Life.

I first came to know Christ through the boys’ brigade; my officer preached to me, gave me a Bible and told me how Jesus died for our sins to save us. I truly believe as everything makes sense, and I said the sinner’s prayer believing in my heart that He will save me and guide me always. After accepting Christ, I became more obedient to my parents; I stop looking down on people and became more helpful.

My parents were not aware that I let Christ into my life as they are strong devoted Buddhist.

I soon went for bible study and courses in church through the boys’ brigade and everything was going smoothly till one day, my parents spotted me walking into church.
They were very angry and forbid me from going out on Sunday where I usually went to attend church service. On Christmas I was forced to stay at home. As a new Christian at that time I don know how to cope with my parents, and my church friends did not ask about me. And since then I lost contact with them.

That time I was very sad and fearful, I feel like giving up, but I thought of Jesus who did not give up on me, then all the more I cannot give up. I kept the faith and continued, finding every chance and opportunities to go to a church.

And so when I am i poly, God led me to this church, It was kong Sheng, (who was not even my friend then), asked me to attend his church(I met him in toilet where he asked me). The first time I came, I felt the love and grace God has given me. I once thought that God has forsaken me as I was not able to go church, but by grace He brought me back again, that shows that God still loves me.

But to follow Christ, there is a price to pay, when I told my parents I will always be a Christian, they were so angry, they tore my bible away and my Christian stuff. Forbid me from going to BB and nearly thrown away my laptop. I even put my studies at stakes. In short, I got to give up everything for Him.

Even though my parents still don allow me to go to church, God always provides a way for me to come, to read the Bible and to pray to Him…… He did not forsake me nor leave me alone, He is always there helping and guiding me. He gave me a wonderful cell group as well, they are always encouraging and cheering me on, giving me the happiest time together with God.

Psalm 55:22 Cast your cares on the LORD
and he will sustain you;
he will never let the righteous fall.

EXCLUSIVE PART

To my parents which was unaware of tis blog and wad I am doing: No matter how much you hate me, no matter what you will do to me in the near future. I will still love you and forgive you. And if you ever chance apon this blog, I hope that you can see how much I grow and matured, through Christ.

I will finish the race!!!

2006-09-23T22:55:00.000+08:00

Today I was back in church after work (which I left 1 hr earlier).Then pastor was sharing about sufferings and running the race (journey of the christian life), and it was really awesome haha.

Sufferings(In the name of Christ) are sure to come for christians, in fact it is a measurement of our faith. And why do christians suffer, cuz our dear saviour, Jesus, suffered and got persecuted as well, so how much more do we deserved not to be persecuted?? But Jesus also says that blessed are those we suffer for His name, cuz the rewards are in HEAVEN.

And how to collect the price??....u got to run the race. And is not easy, but not impossible. Not easy cuz there are things whether in the form of materials or relationships that you are not ready to let go to follow Christ. But if u say u can finish the race, target locked to Christ, i believe u surely can. Cuz in Christ everything is possible.....

Acts 20:24 However, I consider my life worth nothing to me; my only aim is to finish the race and complete the task the Lord Jesus has given me—the task of testifying to the good news of God's grace.

Wonderful...

2006-09-19T19:55:00.000+08:00

Here r some of the pics i took recently at a class bbq wif sec sch frends.Though many never turn up, but we still had a fun time together. The bbq pit location we took was extreamely windy, infested wif crimson red ants,waiting to sink its jaws into our juicy flesh. But it's blessed wif the nice scenery of the seaside which i love it so much.

Psalm 112:4 Even in darkness light dawns for the upright, for those who are gracious and compassionate and righteous.

Do u believe?

2006-09-16T23:25:00.000+08:00

John(11:25-26)Jesus said to her, "I am the resurrection and the life. Anyone who believes in me will live, even though they die; 26 and whoever lives by believing in me will never die. Do you believe this?"

Todae went to church, it's been a long time since we have a combined service.I jumped and praise God like never b4, in fact everytime i praise God like never b4 haha. And the pastor shared a verse which i mentioned above...that i would like to share it.

I once live a life without hope, no direction.....in other words, dun noe wad i am living for. Not long till i found Christ, everthing's changed. I found the greatest love, joy, peace nad even hope in HIM(Jesus). Ya and i really did. He gave me a new spirit that will never die unlike the old which feels like dying everytime.

I never regreted accepting Christ, its the greatest thing i ever did. Come and taste that love too, it's great and awesome haha. Bye.

Half Dead!!!

2006-08-22T21:39:00.000+08:00

Wah never ever expect that this job this time round is so hard. The card i promoting though is FREE but ppl still rejected it, dun even know wat's on their mind (Expect something beyond free?). I think after my contract ends i will really have phobia goin near the ATM(Mon to Sat rain or shine, still have to face that ATM). Alrite thats all, I got to work tomorrow.Bye.

Kong Sheng's birthday!!!

2006-08-20T22:00:00.000+08:00

Happy birthday KongSheng!!! That day in church i left in a hurry so dint really manage to write my greetings on ur birthday card. :( But now i wish that on this special day of urs, God's blessing will overflow you, and it will be remembered with joy and enriched with hopes, blessed wif love...haha Happy b'dae to u!

Anyway jus wanna tell ur, hold on to God no matter wad will come our way, cuz he will relieve us from our troubles.....Don believe then try it.

Meet the BOSS session.....

2006-08-18T19:55:00.000+08:00

Today went for the training/brifing for my job as a debit card promoter. Haha the boss is kind of fierce, and OMG i got to face her for the rest of the month...sad. Thats still not the worst part, the worst was that the uniform was sooo SMALL, i can just barely fit in. Lets just hope it don't shrink after washing....plz...plz...plz. And yeah.......the good part, met some new friends and got to sign up for that new DBS GO! card. Anyway i just wanna thank brandon and ultimately God for that job. Cuz i know that without God, i might just mess up everything. So Praise THE LORD.

I got a job!!

2006-08-15T23:38:00.000+08:00

This morning brandon called me and told me he got lobang for a job, then i just went for the interview together with Sherwin. Haha it has been a long while since i had an interview, but the interview was quite successful, we a manage to clinch the deal and now i am a DBS GO! card promoter.....hehe :p

Finally

2006-08-14T20:47:00.000+08:00

Whews........a hard time deciding on the skin and figuring out those bloging
stuffs. I spent the whole day doin everything. Well this is the first ever blog in
MY WHOLE LIFE!! Hope u will like the song....it's my favourite by hillsong
united, "Till I see you".